Contents
Invocation
The way in. It belongs to neither book and opens both.
Theology
A theology of attention, love, and freedom held in common
Practices
Small Practices for the Great Work of Returning
Attention and Love
- iThe Ten-Second Return
- iiThe Sitting
- iiiMetta and Tonglen
- ivOne Thing Eaten
- vThe God Unfed
- viThe Ruined Ordinary
- viiThe Bird Gate
- viiiThe Open Window
Boundaries and Thresholds
- ixThe Hearth Boundary
- xWhen Intensity Speaks
- xiTrue Naming
- xiiThe Two Shores
- xiiiThe Rite of the Near Otherworld
- xivThe Width of the Room
Relation and Repair
- xvFeed the Guest, Keep the Door
- xviThe Bowl of Names
- xviiThe Watch
- xviiiThe Mending Table
- xixWho Answers to You
- xxBe Beside Me
- xxiThe Web
- xxiiThe Mirror at Four in the Morning
- xxiiiComing Back In
Direction and Uselessness
- xxivThe Letter to the Guardian
- xxvThe Star Ledger
- xxviThe Map Without a Permit
- xxviiThe Feast of Enough
The last pages
Finding a return
| If the question is… | Begin with… |
|---|---|
| I have been away a long time and the house does not fit. | Coming Back In |
| I have no one to call. | The Open Window, then The Bird Gate. Both are built for one person. The book will not pretend this is the same as company. |
| I have ten seconds. | The Ten-Second Return |
| The day has taken everything. | The Ten-Second Return |
| I want to train attention on a day when nothing is wrong. | The Sitting |
| I need to stop improving myself. | The Sitting |
| I cannot feel anything and my body is a long way off. | The Sitting, the door of no object. Or The Ruined Ordinary, which asks nothing of your feelings and only that you stand there for a fixed time. |
| I cannot hold a good wish for anyone, including myself. | Metta and Tonglen |
| I want to know what I am eating and who it cost. | One Thing Eaten |
| Something has been eating my days. | The God Unfed |
| I am not the only one feeding it. | The God Unfed, the last movement |
| I want to say something to whatever exceeds me. | The Open Window |
| People cannot refuse me and I decide what happens to them. | Who Answers to You |
| I need to stand somewhere that is not beautiful. | The Ruined Ordinary |
| I want to set a frame for one day and see what comes through it. | The Bird Gate |
| I need a boundary with someone. | The Hearth Boundary |
| My life has become too available. | The Hearth Boundary |
| Intensity is demanding a decision. | When Intensity Speaks |
| A bond has started to speak like fate. | True Naming |
| Somebody has made this an emergency and is offering me the only way out. | True Naming, the last movement |
| The old map no longer matches the ground. | True Naming |
| I cannot stop returning to one question. | The Two Shores |
| I met an image, a dream, a presence, or a strange coincidence. | The Rite of the Near Otherworld |
| I am caring for someone I cannot leave. | The Width of the Room |
| A state has taken over the whole house. | Feed the Guest, Keep the Door |
| I keep doing the thing I said I would stop. | Feed the Guest, Keep the Door |
| I am grieving. | The Bowl of Names |
| A hard season has ended and I do not know what I am now. | The Bowl of Names |
| The grief is not new and it has not stopped. | The Bowl of Names, the last movement |
| Someone is making the last crossing. | The Watch |
| An animal is dying — mine, found, hit, or one I killed. | The Watch, the animal movement |
| I caused harm. | The Mending Table |
| I do not know what I have not looked at. | The Mending Table |
| I want company without merger. | Be Beside Me |
| I am about to refuse something, alone. | The Web |
| I need to be heard and nobody is awake. | The Mirror at Four in the Morning |
| I cannot trust my own read of what happened. | Say it to a person first. Then The Mirror at Four in the Morning |
| A decision is stuck. | The Letter to the Guardian |
| I am asking what is mine to do. | The Star Ledger |
| I think I have awakened, attained, or gone deep. | The Map Without a Permit |
| Life has become only work. | The Feast of Enough |